To the Man I Fall in Love with

To the man I fall in love with, you know who you are.

Thank you dear, to standing there for me,
in every condition, situations, and circumstances.
Through all my ups and downs.
Through all my pains and sorrows.

Thank you dear, to voluntarily giving me your pair of ears,
to listen and understand to my silly stories.
Through my saddest to happiest moments of life.
Through my noises and quietness.

Thank you dear, to always be there, with your arms open wide,
to compensate all my insecurities.
Through my weakest period to the strongest.
Through my anger, madness, and explosion.
yet tears, laughter, and nicest of me.

Thank you dear, to spare your time,
Just to hold my hands and strengthened me, saying "I know you can make it through."
Just to hug me, and said, "You've done well, now it is time to get some rest."
Just to put my head on your shoulder and said, "Don't be too hard on yourself."
and giving me your heart, just to let me know, --
that you are here, to support me, to love me, to remind me.
Thank you dear, I am so blessed and grateful, to have you.

I love you for your introverts, not too noise, but once you talk, it is meaningful.
I love how you only share your feelings exclusively to me, because I know you trust me.
I love you for our interdependence, meaning we can count on each other, yet being dependent at once.
I love you for who you are, and for a better individual you will be in the future.

Once again, thank you, and happy birthday.
Thank you for not leaving me, while you have tons of reasons to leave, back then.

A Promise.

Promise.
Please promise me nothing, if you are not able to hold onto it.
Please, promise me nothing, if you are going to disappoint me.
Promise me nothing, if those promises are meant to be broken.
Please, I beg you.

No, it's not because I don't trust you.
I just can't bear the feeling of disappointment in the end.
Yeah, call me weak.
The blame is on me, since I expected too high on you.

Let's not make any promises,
so we don't have to suffer any trust issue.
You don't have to trust me, and so do I.
Since no promises we would make.

A Set of Stationery

I thank God for your presence in my life.
You bring additional plots on the story I have been working on since I was born.
I hope it gets prettier each day as your presence in my life.

Thank you for being present.
Thank you for being a present, too.
You are here,
not only as a new variable, but as my correction pen and highlighter. Yeah, --
You make my life becomes more memorable and stand out
and help me to relieve my pain and sorrow in life.
It's nice to have a complete stationery set while working on something serious, --
and that shows how much you mean to me.

We are a set of complete stationery,
and you know how much I am obsessed to it.

Loneliness

Lonely.
Alone.
What is the difference?

Well, for me:
Being alone is a choice.
Being lonely is part of insecurity.

Alone,
Sometimes we need to be alone to reflect something.
To reflect what we have been through, and what we will do next.
Sometimes, we call it, 'me time'.
It is a time when you can enjoy yourself being you,
doing what we would like to do,
enjoying and relaxing ourselves -- after a long day.

Lonely,
It is just our feelings.
Too complex to explain -- because not everyone will understand.
But sure, they have been through it.
Too ambiguous to be perceived -- everyone experienced it differently.
But sure, they have ever been through it.
Too uncertain -- no one could predict when it will come.
But sure, there is a day when you just feel it.
Yeah, the feeling is too volatile.
But sure, it does not feel right.

It happens when you are surrounded by lots of people,
yet feeling so uncomfortable.
It happens just like that, giving a pair of ears to listen,
but none to listen to yours.
It happens that way, giving a heart to worry about,
but none cares about you.
It happens unconsciously, a pair of shoulders to lean on,
arms to warm others, teardrops falling.
It is just like that.
Yet, no one understood.
No one speaks up to just simply asked about your bad day.
No one pats on your shoulder, simply said that
you're going to be okay because they will be there for you. 
None. No one. Nobody.

For those people out there,
fill your time with something else rather than feeling lonely.
You'll be alright, you'll be okay. Trust me.
I have been through those times, and I am still alright.

Everything is going to be alright, darling.
You are a great people, you feel lonely because you don't want to bother them.
You are a good person. It happens simply because you don't want to disturb them.
You are great. You are good. You are doing well. Nothing is wrong with that.
Chin up, head up, and smile, baby!